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I look at the book on the shelf
Displayed above the rest
It is polished and advertised
It certainly does look the best
I want to look inside its soul
Where fantasy is found in words
Of how great it is to read
And what others have heard
Its stature quietly understood
Appearing to what others want to see
If only it were safe to display
What it was truly mean to be
For one thing I have realized
Truth lies in what was once started
The pages no one really thinks about
Tossed away and discarded
They tell parts of its purpose
The true structure for the spine
Band, edges and corners
Pieces and puzzles for the mind
Reasons to take the imperfections
Hold it safe in strongest of weather
To reassure I understand it holds
Everything that defines treasure
Racquel, Founder
Artist’s Square
~A Place Where Artists Go~

April 25, 2012 Posted by | Love, Miscellaneous Poetry | 1 Comment

Reinforce Life In My Breath

I am better now to reflect
On you I have not healed
Yet other things I’ve worked for
Inside have been revealed
I find places in secret to cry
Telling me not to delight
I still struggle til this day
In what I saw in you that night
If you knew of my dark days
You would have apologized
For hurt way deep inside me
Is what you saw in my eyes
And what I saw in yours
Was hope and possibility
Of light I have wished for
In the eyes of my dreams
Now I sit and gather emotions
Running scared and very scattered
They look for security found
Inside me, that mostly matters
They help me walk in strength
With my head held up high
Now I wish what I feel for you
Inside me, will truly die
For your light exposed holes
I have worked so hard to seal
That ravaging souls around me
Seek in weakness to steal
While I can only sit in anger
I should have looked away
Solitude and secrets
They have no words to say
They will only sit in dormant
Until they are the last left
To seal yet another hole
And reinforce life in my breath

Racquel, Founder
Artist’s Square
~A Place Where Artists Go~

March 29, 2012 Posted by | Love | 2 Comments

Letter To Heart

Dear Heart,

I am writing you a letter to say I’m sorry.

Recently, I started to really think about you and needed you the most, but you weren’t around. You’ve been gone for so long, I was worried. I thought you abandoned me. I cried long and hard because I thought you ran away. I wondered where you went. I searched all around to find the answers. Then, I took a long hard look at myself to see why. And as you already know (more than anyone else) I blame myself for things that don’t turn out the way I plan.  That’s one of the reasons you have stuck around so long.  You give me strength. We have always made such a wonderful team. That is just one of a million reasons why I miss you. 

After some time of not noticing you I realized, you have never really went anywhere at all. Now, all I can say is that I want things back the way they were.  I am so fortunate to have you and to see what I have done wrong.  How could I have been so selfish? You were just scared — hiding and working extra hard to protect me and yourself from all of the harmful habits I’ve cost your life. —— I ran away from you!!  I am so sorry. I was just having fun and didn’t realize what I was doing.  I have made lots of mistakes in my life, but this time I REALLY REALLY get a chance to change this around so that I don’t lose you!! I AM SO THANKFUL. What do you say? Can we be another “tag” team again. I know that you have been here all along and you’ve never left, but I want to keep you by my side like we were before. Remember when we were younger? Remember when I’d run and play and you were so happy?  Remember when I took all the chances I wanted to and never wondered where you were, or how you were doing?  You delighted in seeing me grow in all of my obstacles.  You were strongest at my falls and happiest at my laughter. You have ALWAYS been by my side.  I want the days where we were so strong and unstoppable, back. I want to do more for you than what you have done for so long.

I have stepped into a new era of my life and need your strength more than ever right now. I’ve recently met some really wonderful people and some old friends have come into my life again. I need you in these plans.  I know I’m gonna challenge your strength…again….(LOL) and already have a few listed “pending obstacles” in my life.  I can picture you already smiling with your “superhero” cape on! It’s what you love doing the most and what you do best.  🙂

I want to be honest and tell you this will not be perfect, but I have changed.  I’ve changed my habits. I sing again, do poetry, pray, meditate and enlighten myself and my surroundings with things and people that are so positive. I have even studied more about you and intend to do more for us in future.  We will work as a team again!! 

Just so you know, I know so much more about you right now than I ever have before, I can even sigh in contentment and breathe better knowing this.  I don’t have to worry about you going anywhere and ending us because you aren’t happy. I am so happy with our new connection. I have so many new hobbies you will totally enjoy doing. I also do stuff you can’t stand, like listen to hard rock music (lol), stress, worry and sometimes imagine things in my own head that disappoint you.  Those are the little things I know we can work on together.  Right now, all I can promise you is that I will work my hardest and do my best to keep us happy.

Thank you for being my best friend and never letting go.



December 17, 2011 Posted by | Love | 3 Comments

Love’s Song

Everything that you are
should be the irresistible notes
that play the perfect song

for someone else’s heart strings..

December 9, 2011 Posted by | Love | Leave a comment


I see a rush of radiant waters
Fall for all to see
Its everlasting stories
Hold wonder and beauty
My vision is to believe
This flow of glass has so much grace
Though dark caves are behind it
It runs to a peaceful place
I want to take a look inside
Scared I’ve never been very close
Everything it seems to hide
I want to understand the most
But what can one person do
When it is only in their dreams
To bathe in magnificent waters
To swim naked in its stream
It is only inside my mind
To repeat I’ve been here before
I will do this to fool my heart
And long for it no more

Racquel, Founder
Artist’s Square
~A Place Where Artists Go~

December 7, 2011 Posted by | Love | 2 Comments

Fighting You

>You’ve brought me to feel again at the wrong time
My life has been scrambled and the fault is mine
And there no more chances to mess it more
I am fighting my heart to close your door
And I have a feeling inside I will win
To shut out places you have opened within
For success and love battle – one will lose
And right now I am forced to choose
For what you offer is free indeed
But I hold burdens that will make you bleed
Tainted and broken, I have nothing left
Except my one heart and only breath
My goals to make more in life than my name
And make up the years I have put to shame
In my youth as I was searching for love
Burnt to ashes towards the heavens above
Now I only see my road I have pieced together
No one holds me-but me, in stormy weather
And my resistance has held times so tough
To refuse a risk of love now is a must
As this tear I will lock deeply in a safe
To open for you when I am content in my space

Racquel, Founder
Artist’s Square

~A Place Where Artists Go~

September 24, 2010 Posted by | Love | Leave a comment

Lover’s Dream

>The stars dance in delight as two hearts fall
Protecting lack of judgment they cannot see at all
One Two Three whispers revealed that very night
As I love you were words loud enough for two to hold on tight
Hearts passions hold uncertainties, yet victory proclaims
Temporary fulfillment will not take their love in vain
As the moon shines light, reassuring them of their chance
Foolishness will not join shadows in an unsettling warrior stance
As an angel’s vocals shatter, sinister thoughts as they dream
Bursting in glitters of light, shielding off every bad thing
And they lay there openly holding each other in their deep sleep
The heavens interpret the same language their souls seem to speak

Racquel, Founder
Artist’s Square
~A Place Where Artists Go~

August 21, 2010 Posted by | Love | Leave a comment

Dance With Me

I cannot believe your beautiful eyes can foresee
An intimate occasion of dance with me
What have I done for you to desire
Our bodies to connect and cause such fire
As I carefully take each movement in tune
Nothing exists but you and I in this room
And you pull me closer as I watch each step
The only air that I breathe now is your breath
And you hold me tighter as just to reassure
The beginning of what is so much more
And I tear in fear for I no longer can defend
What is within me and me is my true friend

Racquel, Founder
Artist’s Square
~A Place Where Artists Go~

February 3, 2010 Posted by | Love | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Other Signs

I stand in the middle of a room, round white walls
Is its ricochets are driving me mad
For in this place my heart wishes for more
And I stay here in content, maybes or what ifs
One more thing that will make me hopeful
Will I be tired so that I may leave?
Paint a picture or two so I see something else
Something that distracts me from nothing I see
If I paint my own creation, will it satisfy me?
I rummage my pockets in panic
So that I may find some color

Racquel Cruz, Founder
Artist’s Square
~A Place Where Artists Go~

January 21, 2010 Posted by | Love | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment